Sunday, December 8, 2013


Running down the memories
Wrapped up in desire

Oh, where to start. Where to begin.

Was it when you rejected me? Was it when you told me lies? No, before that, before anything. Was it when I realized I am alone, that I'm not an appendix to mother/father? Was it when I was born?

In the early '90s Heavy Metal had gone through three formal transformations. It went from a grassroots, do-it-yourself movement in the UK, inspired by (and often interchanged with) punk to an integrated marketing item during the glam/thrash years and finally it tried to negotiate (with itself, within itself) what it means to be successful and what it will mean for now, towards the future, when the eye of the public will move on to the new trend. What will Heavy Metal be now that it can no longer be innocent?

Because that is what it was in the early '80s, it was spontaneous and more than a little bit silly. Guys with bad guitars and drums and bad voices cutting a 7 inch vinyl record about the Castle of Some Wizard. Let's say that was the period of a little boy playing with their toys alone.

Let's then say that success in the mid to late '80s is mother/father finally taking note of the elaborate constructions, dioramas and vistas their gifted-if-a-little-weird child has created in solitude. Acknowledgement and function warp the form. The difference between a toy and a game is that the toy has a masturbatory function. A game is to be won or lost, instead.

And Heavy Metal lost. How could it not? Mother/father demanded too much. The potency inside the little boy's reconfigured toys was ambiguous by subconscious design, disaligned with Reason and Truth. Mother/father demanded that the insane pathos therein be transformed somehow in an understandable patron design, to be reproduced and enjoyed by adults that live in the Real World, only, responsibly so, perhaps on the weekends, perhaps on a rowdy night out, then back to the office.

Heavy Metal became a fully formalist pursuit circa 1990, with the gravestone being - of course - Metallica's Black Album. Finally, a Heavy Metal record that a marketing executive could enjoy without feeling bad about themselves.

So the teenager Heavy Metal, at the time, tried to appease mother/father. But then they had a second child (grunge and indie rock, whatever you want to call it) and *they* were illogical and impulsive and their toys where ambiguous again and mother/father had a new problem child to solve.

Heavy Metal entered its most volatile, disgruntled teenage phase. It said FUCK YOU MOM/DAD, but it didn't really mean it. It went back to playing with its toys, but when it thought nobody was watching, it took hidden glances towards what mother/father were up to, hoping they were looking back. Not too much, but at least once in a while, to let him know if the grown-up world was outraged/pleased with how the game was shaping up. Either could do.

1. In the '90s, Heavy Metal tried to kill itself to live forever. A norwegian young adult was murdered by another. Churches were burnt down. To assuage the gods, the ablation will be blood. Boys and their toys, oh what will they do for mother/father to pay attention to them again? It's very boring being a teenager, you know.

2. In the '90s, Heavy Metal also tried to stop being Heavy Metal. It tried to become Something Else Metal. Atmospheric metal with gothic touches, industrial noises and new-romantic pop frilly shirts. Or Progressive metal, modernist, abstract, ambiguous like a cubist painting, fey and fleeting. Hang me in a museum.

There was never a time where Heavy Metal overextended itself so much as during the '90s. Toys became games, games became enterprises, big dreams were crushed and unexpected success came for many that had hoped for self-destruction instead.

There was a German band, once, called Secrecy. They started out as a thrash band, like a great many others, slightly late to the party in 1987. Germany in 1987 was not a fun time, kids grew up fast, even if they wanted to play Heavy Metal. As was the paradigm for many German thrash acts of the time and place, Secrecy played a very precise and well-designed type of thrash, one possibly inspired by the then just released "And Justice For All..." by Metallica. As evidenced in Secrecy's first demo "Like Burning One's Boats", Secrecy were trying to take that techno-thrash mold and push it even further in a emotive direction. As far as I've noticed, they were the first to do so, and even now in 2013, ones of the very few to ever attempt this.

In that rapidly reforming state that Heavy Metal was in circa 1990, Secrecy very quickly shed the remnants of their thrash past and quickly assumed a fully progressive metal attire. They got signed to Noise Records, the place to be for their sort of music. They were smart people because thrash was indeed dead in 1990. If you wanted to go the savage route, you would have to play death (or if you were really forward thinking, black metal) at that time. If you wanted to pursue more human topics like those first touched upon in techno-thrash, you would have to become even more melodic, more artistic, more grown-up. Secrecy put their money in that direction.

As early as on their first record, "Art in Motion", Secrecy had created a masterpiece of modernist Heavy Metal. The band is now largely forgotten, and they have not been influential even in underground circles. There are no Secrecy clone bands, there is nobody trying to play progressive metal like this that I know of. It is worth our time to discuss why I consider their material so successful and also why then, would such a successful effort not reach a wider audience.

Secrecy's thing on their first record (and to some extent to its follow-up) is that they play very muscular, well-defined music, very rich in harmonies and with melodies that extend and complete themselves beautifully. The rhythm guitar playing here fills every verse space with sharp triplets, but takes care to open up for the choruses to breathe. When the drummer does a drum roll, the guitarists will palm mute its approximation. They always take care that even if a melody goes through unexpected directions it will resolve itself in a clear manner. Unlike many other progressive metal bands, they are not complicated for complication's sake. There's very little formal abstraction in this music - I can envisage it performed by a string quartet or small orchestra without major alterations. Sure, there is aggression - in fact I would say that on the first demo and on a few cuts from the debut they reach proper thrash metal band levels of push. But even their aggressive parts are always considered as means to create contrast with their more emotive melodic themes. Now, this was a new thing for Heavy Metal.  Take Watchtower, techno-thrash and progressive metal stalwarts. Their music was much busier than Secrecy's, and it was, for the most part, always so. There were dynamics, but usually the contrast achieved (and desired) was one between abstract, fluid chromatic solos over bright clean guitar arpeggios and then, their full-on, compact, over-composed, every instrument independent, on the brink of collapse style that made them notorious. Watchtower were not an emotional band. Secrecy were very much about conveying emotions and they used the shell of thrash and Heavy Metal to do so.

Could then Secrecy then best be understood as a post-thrash band? I do not think so. I think a staple of post- anything bands is that they appropriate surface formal characteristics of the music they're about to turn inside out, and then they create art that is dialectically opposed to the function of the original music. So far, so good, that's exactly what Secrecy are doing. But here's the problem: post-x music cannot be appreciated as an object belonging to x genre de rigueur.  SunnO))) appropriate black metal tropes and can be seen as a post-metal endeavour, but they cannot be enjoyed as a black metal band. There's simply not enough there, there's only surface textural characteristics of metal (or black metal). There's no depth to the content, when looked at as metal music.

This is a common issue with post-modern art, I'm not pretending I've made a startling realization here when examining Secrecy's music. The case is that Secrecy's riffs and songs are too well constructed as thrash or Heavy Metal music to be seen as post-metal anything. In fact, were the listener to be selectively deaf to the vocals of Secrecy and a few select musical passages in their debut, they could place the record historically, in the Bay Area circa 1987 without much trouble. Anthrax were often as melodic, for example.

So if Secrecy know their Heavy Metal inside-out and they can compose 10 Accept hit songs in their sleep (I am not exaggerating, this is the caliber of the composers in Secrecy) then we have to beg the question. Why are they juxtaposing harsh, muscular thrash edge with this meek, teenager voice and why is their lyrical subject matter so decidedly teenaged?

The answer I've come up with is actually pretty simple and that's a big part of why I think it's the correct one. Secrecy were playing a gambit. They looked at Heavy Metal circa 1990 and they tried to think which of the then nascent 'exit-points' would become the most popular. Would it be romantic, nationalistic and often reactionary returns to blood, guts and sorcery? Or would it be humanist, modernist Heavy Metal-for-every-thinking-being? Secrecy thought the latter, bless their hearts, and set out to create one possible patron of that ideal.

This isn't to say that they did not believe in that direction, I don't think it was a calculated, cynical affair. I would bet that Secrecy - or at least the chief lyricist, pulling the rest of an uncertain band along? - really believed in themselves in all of this.

The lyrical material on Secrecy's debut is not well-written. This further mystifies subject matter that is ambiguous to begin. What I've gathered - and perhaps most importantly the function I use it for, the type of emotion I want to have when I listen to them - is that Secrecy are recounting the various existential wounds of teenager and young adult life. There's a real sense of hurt to this music. An accusatory tone that turns outward and inward at the drop of a dime. It is remarkably successful how just keywords, and the singer's singing voice are capable to evoke such an emotional response in me. In the past I've rambled about one of my first failed love affairs while Secrecy played (I will not reproduce the text as it is in Greek) and I just can't help but summon those uncomfortable feelings of alienation, loneliness and mistrust of my own teenager experience when I listen to them.

It's extremely potent to put these feelings not on top of some mope rock or gothic pastiche, but instead over crystallized Heavy Metal power. It is not just a good tool of vengeance, it is life-affirming. Secrecy take the shittiest parts of being a teenager, the shittiest part of being under the thumb of mother/father, or that of the school system, or being pressured this or that way by your peer group and they place it on top of a towering artifice, kaleidoscopic in its beauty and seemingly eternal. It will stand upright forever, and the most tender and wounded part of a child's heart will be there, on the top, for all to see. Defiant and beautiful. No Secret.

Secrecy were wrong, we know now. They succeeded completely in creating the avatar of emotional, warm, complex, prickly on the surface yet still tender-hearted Heavy Metal. Their songs are a joy to listen to purely on a 'whee, Heavy Metal!' fun way. But they're very deep and thoroughly composed. The voice employed is the voice of someone's childhood. It is so brave to put this voice, singing these words, on top of their quasi-thrash. It is, in fact, too revealing of their intentions. I can imagine a rowdy, denim and leather clad beer-guzzling hesher saying "turn that shit off" if you played them Secrecy, because it would make them uncomfortable. Secrecy are uncomfortable to idiot metalheads exactly how a homosexual person would be uncomfortable in their midsts. Playing Prostitute Disfigurement for them, that would be fine, it wouldn't make them uncomfortable at all. But Secrecy? A fey teenager girl voice whining on top of muscular, compact and composed thrash? Filth, just filth.

This is the triumph of Secrecy, that you have to confront a soft attack. You have to learn something about yourself to understand them. You might find yourself lacking. There's no two ways about Secrecy. If you like Heavy Metal, it's impossible not to like their SONGS. If you're trapped in some perpetual masculine performance, it's imposible to like their tone and their message. Secrecy will let you know that. They have truly taken a thesis, an antithesis, and structured a synthesis out of the parts - how Marxist of them. There is such internal tension in Secrecy's music but there is no disagreement in it. It is What It Is. A remarkable achievement.

I bet people couldn't stand them - I bet they ran as fast as they could back to their Destructions and Sodoms, to their comfortable fantasy escape, to the occultating mists of mysticism. Back to their toys. Eyeing mother/father, are they paying attention? What use is Heavy Metal if it illuminates the most tender core of the teenager heart?

Well, a lot of use, it turns out, now in 2013, that Heavy Metal is spent and over, now that it is a civil war reenactment, now that there are a million bands whose sole raison d'etre is 'to be one of a million bands'. I look at Secrecy's brief two-album trajectory and I am humbled by what is achieved in such a brief time. More than that, I am inspired.  The clarity of intent, the musicality of the songs, the emotional capacity of the awkwardly written, yes, lyrics. I want there to be more of this type of Heavy Metal, because it is most needed than ever before, unlike, oh, 99% of the other, oversaturated metal genres. The tender heart still beats because how could it not? History has ended, capitalism has won, but injustice is still here, injustice is still experienced daily, the wound is there. How will we address it?

Naturally, on their second record, "Raging Romance", Secrecy have an answer. They are mostly preoccupied with their faith in God. Did you ever doubt that this would be the end-point of their story? Angsty teenagers against everyone, rebelling against Reason and Logic as much as they were to nonsensical posture and bravado in the metal scene, what would be left to them but the ultimate alienation of their peer group? Christianity it is, then.

There have been many "white metal" bands over the years, many of them playing to their home crowd (christian communities that liked the form of Heavy Metal but detested its message, easy to market to, right?) but there has been no other band like Secrecy, who used finding-God as the ultimate punchline against everything that Heavy Metal stood for, and did it with such panache. As you would expect, there was no third record.

The band is rumored to be back together again, and unlike most reunions, I am half-looking forward to another record by them in 2013. If there's a band that can push forward from their past glories and become vital, upsetting and offer something new in 2013, it's Secrecy. But it's equally possible that they will be trapped by self-conscious issues, their 'legacy' as a band, and create "Raging Romance pt. 2". It would be such a shame, as the music would be good, I bet - nay, stellar, possibly - but it can't be about God. Not in 2013. I refuse to believe that the tender heart of Secrecy resonates to the calling of God. It can either be charred and withered by now, 45 to 50 years old, conservative and slavish to authority, or it has to have forsaken the lord, it has to be irreverent, impossible, brighter than the sun.


  1. "Labels: categorical statements."

    Art in Motion is one of my favourite records ever. I can't remember why I listened to it. Maybe it was you or maybe it was a random download link at the pinnacle of the golden age of blogspot (2010-2011), but I listened once and fell in love. It was everything I ever hoped "tech-thrash" or whatever you call it could be, uniquely German but fully human. I never even cared if the lyrics were childish, because they were so human. It follows me everywhere, be it in quiet contemplation or during solitary 10 kilometer runs.

    I don't know what else I can add, but thank you for writing this.

    Raging Romance for some reason never clicked. Listened to it once or twice, kept meaning to give it another shot, but it never did it for me. Gonna give it another try right now. Maybe it weirded me out, but I always stayed within the now-comfortable confines of Art in Motion. Ironic, ain't it? I'm listening again, and it's good, but I don't think I'll ever place it on the level of Art in Motion.

    I've never listened to the demo. I want to, but have never been able to find a good download link anywhere.

    Regardless, I'm interested as to how many other people have been turned on to this gem of a band.

  2. I'm very glad you enjoy Secrecy. There seem to be very few of us!

    Re: demo

    I'd expect the band wouldn't mind that someone that really loves their music downloaded their demo.

  3. Thanks a lot for that. By the way, the Metal Archives tell me they did one last thing, a demo in 1992. Any thoughts on that one, if you've heard it?

  4. I didn't even know it existed!

  5. I am adult, yet I feel like an eternal child. Never really got over my teenage years but unlike most adults I'm aware of this secret. The most embarrasing one. I consider myself very emotional human male and I am easily touched to tears if you pull the right strings. Secrecy move me a lot on their full lengths as do Fates Warning on Spectre and Awaken... or Mercury Rising on Building Rome. I both identify with the existential pain and stand inspired by the answers to it that are presented in these albums. I could never be a christian but the courage in taking the leap of faith always gets me (I really think I wouldn't be even alive if I had not accepted and embraced some kind of nontheistic absurdism in life) or in Fates Warning's case the humanist inner-strength and hope that has become something of "an ideal way of being" for me. In short: though I might not be able myself - it's amazing how some people believe in something.

    Can you imagine there's someone who rolls the dice?
    A deep dimension - love and wisdom for your life
    A weapon 'gainst the thing which cuts in like a knife

    As you pointed out Secrecy's take on Heavy Metal was very unique indeed and it's unfortunate no band (to my knowledge) took notes... Metal's best kept Secret?

  6. I still think Xerxes are the best thing I've found in the underground, though.

  7. Aha, time to play Falling Leaves! This label gets thrown around too often to mean anything perhaps but Xerxes is a true "hidden gem", though even more aquired taste than Secrecy. Sometimes I wonder how they would've faired if they had had more exposure in both mainstream or underground circles when progressive metal was still new and relevant. I'm guessing they sound too light and mendering even for most who were into Queensr├┐che, Dream Theater or Fates Warning in the 90s to win popularity contests.

  8. I'm going to write about Xerxes pretty soon. I don't have as much time for Poetry as I used to and it's gotten into me to at least get a good 50% of the reviews I want to do done. I got a bit lost with Helloween's record, really. I think I need to do 'Ride the Sky' and finish that narrative, the rest of the record is great but it is within the range that I've already presented.

  9. Going through the whole record piece-by-piece was an ambitious idea and I can see how wearing it could become when trying not to reiterate too much. But don't get me wrong, I loved the posts about Victim of Fate and thought it was one of the best ones this on blog though I never commented it. Couldn't really add anything to it.

  10. Thank you for your kind words.

  11. I really must listen to this band now. Seems interesting. Thanks!

    I guess I shall give Xerxes a listen as well. Thanks again!

  12. "There seem to be very few of us! "

    I like what little I know of Secrecy. Yeah, I want to think about their work some more.

    Thanks for the thoughtful comments here and excellent post!

  13. Secrecy was brilliant...Art in Motion is such a perfect album... JG from France

  14. Thanks for the post. The set the sails demo was posted in full on the secrecy website, but that website has been offline for several years.

    The track listing was:

    01.  Set the Sails  (04:07)
    02.  Yes no more  (04:22)
    03.  I can´t see it  (03:21)
    04.  Smoking Flax  (05:15)
    05.  P.I.C.  (02:42)

    I have it somewhere and will put a link on here with the a couple of other live tracks they posted. The only other track I know they released is called "Home Alone" which was released on a compilation album called "Ride on the Underground 23".

    A couple of Secrecy members formed the Ram-do Connection and made a couple of demos that sounded a little like King's X.

    Sadly there will be no new music or releases from Secrecy. Drummer Alex Zasso died a few years back.

  15. Thanks for the read. I loved the 2 albums they released, unfortunately never got to see them live and the only chance I had was at the Bang Your Head festival in 2008 which they reunited for.

    They released the Set The Sails demo in full on their sadly extinct website ( Track listing was:

    01.  Set the Sails  (04:07)
    02.  Yes no more  (04:22)
    03.  I can´t see it  (03:21)
    04.  Smoking Flax  (05:15)
    05.  P.I.C.  (02:42)

    You can find some of the above on youtube, but when I get chance I will up the demo together with a couple of live tracks and put the link here. I'll also put in the only other track I know "Home Alone" which was released on a compilation album called "Ride on the Underground 23".

    A couple of Secrecy members made 2 demo's under the Ram-do Connection name. They sounded a little like King's X.

    Sadly due to the death of drummer Alex Zasso a few years ago there will be no more music or Secrecy reunion.

    1. Mat, thank you so much for your comment. I'm very glad you liked the text.